Tuesday, May 19, 2009

The Mountain

Photo from Art.com

On the night that I decided to become a writer, I dreamed of walking on a road leading to a mountain. My destination, the mountain, stood far in the distance and the road I walked curved and rose and fell. Depending on where I stood, the road seemed to disappear completely from view. But the mountain was always there, waiting and watching in clear weather and foul.

The dream was a symbol of the choice I'd made earlier that day in a tourist shop in Sedona, AZ. My choice would never be easy, it wouldn't always be rewarding and it would bring me to the conjoined twins, Ridicule and Jealousy over and over again. But the dream told me that storytelling was my calling, my soul's work. I've never regretted the decision to embrace that calling. Ever since that day back in 1994, I've never woken up and not said thank you.

Today I got some very disappointing news with regards to Aracely Calderon. And yet, I don't feel too sorry for myself because for the last five months I've been researching for an eight-part mini-series being written for Will Smith's company, Overbrook Productions. I'm developing a cable series and preparing another script for a prestigious fellowship.

Good thing I have a sense of humor, not to mention patience, because I had to train as a screenwriter to become an author to then become a screenwriter. The road has taken me to some amazing places and it only knows where it will lead me next. Honestly folks, I don't know when my next standalone book will be released. It could be in three years, thirteen or thirty. It could be with a major publisher, a small independent or on my own dime. But you have no idea how grateful I am to you who have not only bought my books for yourselves, but also as gifts for your family and friends. You have no idea how much I treasure the emails you have taken the time to write where you asked when my next book will come out. Thank you. Thank you all of you.

I say this with much confidence and hope that we'll meet again, through one of my books or on a TV or movie screen, somewhere on the way to the mountain.

By the way, I will not close down this blog! I will continue to write my thoughts when they come or share a kick-ass book or author. And mija, when I sell Aracely Calderon (this is where you will notice that I am a dyed-in-the-wool Capricorn) I will be OBNOXIOUS in my excitement. But in the meantime, its time to get back to work.


Anonymous said...

Not knowing is most intimate and true.

Mrs. V said...

I am so sorry to hear about Aracely Calderon. I couldn't wait for it to come out. Every time I see a mariachi band I think of you and the book:). I will be so excited when it works out to be released some day.

Until then, your screenplay sounds excited. Good luck with your latest projects.

Mary Castillo said...

Thank you Karen. Your words are always a soothing balm.

Mrs. V: I'm not giving up yet!


J.K. Mahal said...

You never know when the road of life will take you back to Aracely, or where Aracely will take you.

I know you know, journey not destination. You're a wonderfully talented writer whose gifts grow EVERY time I read you. Love you.


Kathy Cano-Murillo, The Crafty Chica said...

Please don't make it sound like goodbye, Mary! You wrote that book because it is a story you were meant to tell. It WILL happen when you least expect it. Maybe you can share your first three chapters online for your fans????

And that is so wonderful that you have an exciting screenwriting career going on at the same time! You are muy talented for sure!!

Mucho love and adoration!
Kathy :-)

marycmbox-men said...

Thank you Jen. I know I can always count on you!

Oh no Kathy, I'm not shelving Aracely. She just has to wait six weeks until I can get to her again. She's maybe 75% complete. Let me put it this way: some people would rather have things sooner than later.

Love you both!

Nadine said...

Here, here Mary.

It's not an easy road at all, and I have no idea what the future holds for me right now either. But when I got my bad news, I realized in an instant that I'd gotten too addicted to writing to give up, even if I'd have to do it on my own dime. Luckily, with the Internet, there will continue to be ways for us to get our words out there(you should also read JA Konrath's blog - he offers some fantastic tips).

Good luck, hang in there, and keep writing!